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Hm...

[ Kano looks away, eyes trailing around the empty walls of the room. ]

Something like happiness isn't provided by just one person, though, right? You give some of the happiness back, and I'll do my best to give him happiness too. Though I'm not sure he likes me at all!! But even that is fine, 'cause isn't that what friends are for?

[ And Gon has lots of friends. Yuya has lots of friends. Kano, somehow, has lots of friends. Everybody in the school is supposed to be together. ]

This isn't something you have to do all by yourself, after all.

Edited 2019-05-27 06:17 (UTC)

... Maybe. [Yuya looks up, staring at the ceiling.] No, I know--I want other people to make him happy. It doesn't have to just be me. No matter what, as long as he's happy I will be too.

[Or he'll make himself be, even if Gongenzaka loves someone else and Yuya will die with these feelings. That's fine. Yuya's always been by his side as a friend, and that won't change.]

I want everyone to have every bit of happiness we can get. I want to make memories worth something.

[ Here Kano is creating memories, except they're all terrible ones, even if they're memorable. That's probably not what Yuya means at all, trying to make every moment happy as possible, while Kano... well, he tries to be in the present, joking around and pulling people into as many little adventures as he can, but ultimately, his sights are set on a far off future where he can guarantee happiness instead of just the little moments.

He laces his fingers in between Yuya's while he's distracted, and reaches over with his other hand to pat Yuya on the head again. ]

Hey, hey, look at me real quick~ It's the same for you, so! I want you to be happy! What's something I can do to make you happy? And it can't be "I'm happy as long as you're happy," 'cause I've had that conversation before and it's very tiresome to have to repeat it!!

[He is going to make a static mess of Yuya's hair again, but he relents to it.

His expression twists a little before he half-turns to face Kano. His eyes are getting even redder than normal from all the crying.]

Candy. [But he cracks a wide smile.] Dumb conversations over the phone, exploring everything outside the school, playing games and inviting me over...

[All things Kano's already done for him. He doesn't feel like he needs to really come up with new ideas, because Kano manages that all on his own. He's already on the right track.] And I'm happy to have this, even if it's not the same kind of happiness--not having to be alone when we're not happy. Trust.

[Being friends, and all the good and bad that comes with it. He turns a little more, a little eagerness in his expression as he faces Kano.] What about you?

[ ...The terrible thing about being friends is the expectation of trust and honesty that comes with it, a give and take that he's not allowed to run away from. But it's a difficult question for Kano to answer, and he can't give an answer as immediate or specific as Yuya does.

What is happiness? A light heart, the feeling of safety, the belief that everything will work out, of looking forward to a future and seeing himself there. The closest thing to that... ]

Hmm... I'm going to cheat and say it's the same for me! Having you here, stubbornly not leaving me alone, that's a good thing! That sort of thing makes me happy.

Good, because then I don't have to stop. [Yuya gives Kano's hand a gentle squeeze.

And right now, it's as simple at that. Later, he'll have to think about how everyone else will feel about Kano and how he'll have to balance his forgiveness with their feelings. Because he confronted Kano before anyone else, so he'd know his answer... he hopes, selfishly, it won't be too different for the rest of them.]

[ It's too bad Kano's going to spend the entirety of June in his room fast asleep instead of going around apologizing to people. He gives Yuya's hand a tight squeeze before letting go and straightening up. ]

Alright!! I'm going to go run the bath and get changed, so you find something to wear too! There might be clothes in the dresser??

[ He does own clothes..... he just never wears it. Being friends with Kano means Yuya's terrible clothes are going to disappear one by one and he'll be forced to either go shopping for something reasonable or just wear something from Kano's wardrobe, which consists solely of black and black and black and black. ]

[Yuya thinks his clothes are fashionable and very reasonable.]

Uh--[Yuya blinks rapidly, straightening up suddenly.] You--really want me to spend the night? I talk in my sleep, so my nightmares aren't... quiet. I can take a spot on the floor!

[Since Kano has made a mega-bed, and Yuya's not going to kick him out of it.]

[ Yuya is wrong. Also, Kano doesn't even sleep in his own bed, that's Nightmare's mega-bed and they're both sleeping on the floor. ]

Yep, that's right! Hope you brushed your teeth before coming over, 'cause I'm not letting you use mine!!!

[Yuya doesn't even care about the toothbrush, he's worried he's going to kick and scream and freak out Kano like all his roommates. Like Toki.]

O. Okay. [Despite it he's still going for the drawer, to try and find... anything that looks comfortable enough for sleepwear.]

Be back soon once I'm squeaky clean~!!

[ Yeah... yeah. He'll just deal. There's not a lot of clothes in the drawer, but what's there all seems to be new and neatly folded. Everything the aforementioned black, everything with long sleeves. The only color is one drawer half filled with loose pairs of socks in horrible bright colors that Yuya would probably enjoy, except none of them have a matching pair. He can find whatever.

As for Kano, he draws the bath and he'll take a bath, okay!!!! except, unless Yuya checks in on him, maybe half an hour passes and there's no sound from the bathroom and it's very possible that Kano just falls asleep right in the tub, it's been over two days without sleep, everything is terrible. ]

[He'll go with black and black, and two unmatching socks and looking completely out of his brightly-colored element. Since Kano's in the bathroom, he changes quickly by the dresser and then... waits.

It's about 40 minutes before he knocks on the door.] Kano? Everything okay?

[ ~~wakes up and nearly drowns~~ At the knock on the door, there's— a loud splash, the sound of somebody slamming their elbow into the side of the tub and a subsequent muffled curse. A moment's silence. Then- ]

Sorry, just dropped the soap!! I'll be out in a bit— can you find me pants?

Uh--yeah! [Yuya smirks, shaking his head before he turns back to the wardrobe to fish Kano out a pair of pants as well. Whatever looks comfortable and isn't just jeans, if possible.

That should only take a minute before he knocks on the door again.]

[ He draws the line at asking Yuya to dig through his underwear drawer, so a fresh pair of pants will have to do, along with Yuya's shirt that he puts on after he's toweled off, and sticks a bare arm through the crack of the door to take the pants. Wearing pants that aren't jeans is weird... being barefoot and losing the inch of height granted by his boots is also weird. ]

[An inch of height lost and he's still taller than Yuya. Who is doing a bad job hiding his amusement, but he does pass the pants through the crack in the door and leaves Kano to getting dressed.]

[ And he's going to hold onto that inch with everything he's got, even if he has to drink gallons of chocolate milk to help him grow.

Kano gets changed quickly and doesn't bother with brushing his hair or anything like that because when he opens the door— flinging it open with a dramatic flourish—- ...of course it looks like he's wearing the exact same thing as he always is, black jacket and brown shirt, dark pants and boots, everything neat and clean and as it should be. The actual jacket he has bundled up in his arms, and he goes ahead and stuffs it into his closet with all his other personal belongings he can't be bothered to actually put in his desk or on a shelf. ]

[Yuya at least doesn't stand next to the bedroom door, sitting on the desk (because there's no chair) and perking up when Kano comes out.]

Feels better not to be so grimy, right?

Eh... It feels weird!!! Like I gotta keep clean after all that effort, but that's no good~ You should be prepared to get your hands dirty whenever it calls for it, you know?

[ Whether that's sawing through the floor or jumping out the window, doing it in nice clean clothes makes it feel like all the effort of bathing will go to waste. At least when he's wearing his old clothes, it's already dirty and getting it dirtier wouldn't matter, he can bleed on it all he wants and it's fine. ]

How 'bout you? You look good in black and black! [ and black and black and garish colorful mismatching socks. ]

Hey, I have no problem getting dirty. A bath is even better because of that. [That moment of cleanness... also, just soaking for a while is relaxing.

He slides off the desk, pulling the edge of the shirt slightly.] It probably looks better on you, but I'll take it.

[ Baths are dangerous because he feels like he's going to fall asleep the moment he gets into one. Showers are similarly dangerous because you stand under the hot water and dissociate and suddenly it's half an hour later and the water's run cold. Definitely some sort of black magic going on.

Kano looks down and pulls at the edge of his shirt too— Yuya's shirt, which fits well enough on him, while all of Kano's clothes tend to run slightly large, in the futile hopes that he'll continue to grow— and recasts the illusion so he's matching Yuya now, right down to the mismatched socks. ]

Like this? How do I look~

[Sleeping in baggy oversized clothes is the best anyway, as far as Yuya's concerned.

He gives him a thumbs up.] It's great! Chic fashion!

I don't think I know what that word means!

[ Useful and comfortable are what he goes for, dark and earthy colors so he never has to worry about color coordinating anything. Lazy fashion.

He goes and gets Nightmare so he can set her up on top of the bed, and then hops back down to survey the room. ]

Hmm, hmm~ Do you move around a lot when you sleep? Maybe you should go under the desk...

I think it's supposed to be big city fashion or something? [He doesn't actually know, either.

He crosses to the bed to grab a pillow, because he's claiming at least that and a blanket if he can get away with it, and pauses.]

Well, I've never rolled out of bed or anything. It's most that I talk, or... scream?

[ Nightmare gives Yuya an irate a look as a lizard can manage, but allows him the pillow and blanket. There is only one other pillow and Kano lets Nightmare have it, going ahead to hop up onto the desk to sit now that Yuya's left the spot vacant. ]

A sleep talker, huh~ Have you ever heard yourself? Like, a recording?

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