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[ Ah... They're coming back to that, are they? Not wanting to exist, a feeling that's been deeply seated for so many years, that he can't just shake off and forget about because one person- or two or three or ten- say that his life is worth living. It's very hard to start thinking that all of a sudden. ]

Hm... There is something you can give me, in exchange for me staying.

What is it? [Yuya perks up. Bargaining wasn't what he meant but it's something, it's a start, also he's extremely easy to walk all over and has largely been protected by Nana and Gon being too good to take advantage of him.]

[ Ohh, he took the bait. ]

I'm looking for a recoiless rifle, but I'm having a bit of trouble getting my hands on one of them. Won't you help me out?

... A what? [Yuya stares blankly, obviously having no visual clue to what that is. He's never fired a gun.] That's some kind of gun?

[Or are they calling something else rifles, he doesn't know.]

Yep, that's right!

[ It's some kind of gun. Just the thing he'd want Kano of all people to get his hands on, right? ]

You know how to fire a gun? [Yuya tilts his head sideways, brow furrowing.] Why do you need one?

Well, yeah, a gun's just sort of like.... [ He fashions his hands into double pistols, not at all how you hold and shoot a rifle, and goes ] pew pew!

[ before dropping his hands and shoving them into his pockets. ]

I don't need one. But I'd like one, and if I had one, it'd encourage me to stay?

[... It's a joke, isn't it. Yuya's expression twists into a crooked smile.] But there's a reason you haven't just asked the people at the Anvil to make you one, right...?

[Probably because they'd say no, no, absolutely not. He shakes his head.] I'll try, if that's really what'll take to make you stay.

[Or rather, he'll disappear from mortification the next day and maybe when he remembers later, he'll give Kano a printed picture of a rifle.]

'cause they'd say no, right?

[ Obviously they'd say no, and he doesn't have a concrete reason to convince them with, unlike with Yuya where he can make up some bs and hope his friend will follow through.

Anyways, if Yuya remembers later and gives Kano a picture of a rifle, he will look YUya dead in the eye and walk out of the room and disappear off the grid and be unreachable by phone for three days. It's only sort of a joke!!!! He was still hopeful. ]

[Kano would end up shooting either Yuya or Toki, he doesn't need a gun.] If they thought you shouldn't have one, I guess. But there'd be a reason for that.

[He sticks out his tongue before reaching for another cookie.] I thought you said before you didn't want to learn to fight?

[ Probably Toki, yeah... He gets to live another day. ]

That's right. I have no intentions of fighting~ Not directly, anyways! That, I'm leaving up to you!

... What else would you use a gun for? [Can he even come up with a good excuse.

Or the truth.]

[ Nah ]

I'm not going to use it. I just want one?

Okay, but why? [Mr. Have A Reason For Everything.]

Isn't wanting something the best reason to want it...?

[ I want it because I want it, aka I'm not telling you the Reason. ]

Yeah... but a gun's kind of weird to want just beecause, since you hate fighting and you don't want to use it.

Yuya... Aren't there things you hate and don't want to do, but you do them anyways?

Yeah. I hate fighting too, but I doing it. [He points at Kano.] But you just said you weren't going to! What else is a gun good for except killing people?

They're good for lots of things~! Use your imagination a little, Yu~ya!

[ He waves his hand, as if that's enough to dispel all of Yuya's worries. Kano is suspicious and troublesome, he knows, but has he ever given off the impression that he means to put people in danger on purpose? It's usually just a side effect. Or something. ]

How 'bout this? I can promise you that nobody is expected to die with the intended use of this rifle you're going to get me or else I have nothing else to live for and might walk off a cliff tomorrow rifle-less.

D-don't joke about that! [Yuya starts, voice suddenly shrill with distress. Kano death jokes aren't funny anymore.] That means you, too, I don't want you hurt either!

[ He knows they're terrible and that's why he said it. Yuya has the power to save his life, and he knows that's something Yuya doesn't take lightly, either. ]

Haha, don't worry about me! I'll be su~per careful, like I always am? I know what I'm doing, Yuya! Trust me!!

You won't trust me enough to tell me what it is. [Yuya chews on his lip, shrinking back a little in uncertainty.] Are you... serious about needing a gun?

[Does he really have to get Kano one, will Kano seriously hurt himself if he doesn't get one? It felt like a joke and now he doesn't know.]

[ The longer somebody talks with Kano, the less sure jokes become. Despite his better judgement, he does it on purpose, leaning back a little with a smile on his face that doesn't quite reach his eyes. ]

I'm serious~ And it's nothing to do with you, or with trust! Or the lack of! I just like keeping things secret until the very end, 'cause then I can surprise everybody~ You know how that is, right? It's no good if I leak spoilers~

[It doesn't sit well when he's asking for a weapon. And lots of people here have them, sure, Yuya basically has a dragon. But Kano being cagey with that smile is unsettling when he's claimed he's not picking up the same cause.

Yuya runs his hands through his hair, digging his fingers into his scalp and pulling against it.] You won't really hurt yourself if I can't?

[ Trust is something that goes both ways, but Kano knows he's in no position to ask Yuya to trust him with anything— he would rather he didn't, he would rather Yuya question things and make a stand, but it's really unfortunate that Yuya cares more about Kano's safety and well-being than the safety and well-being of everybody else. ]

...I won't. But it's still something I would like, if at all possible. If not, I'll find some other way around it, so no worries, Yu~ya! I won't be too disappointed!

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